Let it go

2011-09-24T22:56:00.000-07:00

R.E.M. cds and library books
stacked 3 and 4 high and
mis-matched throw pillows;
honestly, sometimes life
is like that.

Dreams of my Father

2011-09-24T22:31:00.000-07:00

you beat me to death with a baseball bat
outside on the cold pavement.
I braced my small body, curled inside myself
and waited, in my blood, to die.

this one, you told me with pale and patchy skin
that hell consumes.

you were dying in the shower slowly;
the water didn't stop assaulting your frail body -
we both cried.
mercy was waking up.

the fire was eating up the wood around our life,
windows were spitting glass outside and
my eardrums burst to spite the noise.
the heat severed the power lines across the street,
electricity danced violently against the pavement
when I first knew your body was devoured.

this one is the one that lives.
there is no mercy.

small prayer: 8/15

2011-08-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

let it always be the image of
one hundred cattle on
rolling hills;

let me talk about marriage
either to you
or to soil
or to humanity,
but let it be sincere.

quickie

2011-08-16T21:07:00.000-07:00

i suppose life isn't defined
by my lines
and carbon curves.

what's next?

4/4*

2011-08-08T20:15:00.000-07:00

part one:
i do things i hate.
like, apologize profusely.
a stream of self-hating vomit
continuously getting caught between my teeth
and sticking in my throat.
how pathetic, you know?
day dream about New Mexico -
thinking about the sand and
the mighty saguaro,
(jesus christ! it's pronounced
suh-wah-roe)
and the sky that just might make me forget.
i remember your goddamned face
and
i'm sorry,
it makes me empty.
my terracotta skin breaks apart
and i decompose
in this life i've created in your absence.
nothing fills me up
except the occasional too-much-whiskey
and that just makes me thirst for your
hands.

part two:
the summer eats up my soul like a peach -
as i drip down her arm and from her mouth,
my nectar leaves a reminder;
it used to be simple.

part three:
we forget.
and yes, i use "we".

from June 22

2011-08-01T18:18:00.001-07:00

i have a restless heart right now.
i have a healing tattoo right now.
i have voids in my life and lots of dirty clothes.
i occasionally have serious chest pains,
i have unfathomable doubts about myself and really bad skin.
i have two cats, one who loves me like i'm the only human on earth.
that's a nice thing to have.
i have feet that are spreading with age,
i have tits that aren't.
i have a sky,
and some ground
and some blood.
i have friends who are moving on,
i have some friends who aren't.

i know i'm not.

3/4

2011-07-11T19:34:00.000-07:00

i wash in the trough meant for swine
but i am the pig and
he is me.
i let the water touch my skin,
washing my filth to the ground -
starting on my sun ward face and
paving paths on my chest
in between my tits;
cooling the heat between my legs.
finally, water at my feet
pooling in mud around
my toes.
i stand tall,
naked,
near the barn.

2/4: (project with kurt) Independence Day

2011-07-02T17:46:00.000-07:00

fireworks sound like guns.
that makes sense, though,
right?

tell me i'm not the only one.

I FUCKING WILL SCREAM THIS:

DON'T DIE FOR A COUNTRY,
don't leave your family empty,
this noble cause is a farce.
you die and your family dies, too.

and what kind of peace is that?
what kind of peace is that.

1/4 (project with kurt): take 3

2011-06-23T21:50:00.002-07:00

Eleven years sees changes beyond
comprehension.
The constant is
I ache.
Oh, and sometimes I can't
move because of the
pain.

1/4 (project with kurt: take 2*

2011-06-23T21:47:00.000-07:00

A PLAIN LOVE POEM

What you don't know is
I savor the idea of your molecules
mixing with mine.

We're ancient.
It makes sense.

We were once formed in the sun
and probably then
I told you how beautiful
you were.

and also, I breathe you in.
I can't think about the complexity -
you and me,
dancing molecularly.

1/4 (project with kurt)

2011-06-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

I DRINK TO A DRUNKEN COMMUNICATION VIGNETTE: aka yeah right

I tend to talk about my tits.
The shape they've maintained, color and texture, it's like,
"Jesus christ, is she talking about a fucking Cubi?"
I'm sure it's annoying and I'd apologize if
I felt it was wrong.
Besides that, I talk about my brother.
He's better than your brother. He's better
than you. His soul is grass-fed and thick
with honey.
If you want, I'll tell you about my weekend.
I'll talk about our societal triangle and it's
disconnecting three parts that are polarizing
a wide spectrum.
You don't want to hear that.
I will help you parent
without your permission
and I'll judge you easily and without
distress.
My favorite color is green, but
probably because of habit and I
think most christians are naive, but mostly
because everyone is.
You don't want to hear that either.

You want to talk about my tits again?
Me, too.

30/30

2011-05-02T20:17:00.000-07:00

I have twenty six bones in each foot,
elaborately working with muscles, tendons
and ligaments.
They are evolutionary phenomena -
good for running after wounded deer
and fleeing enemies.
Flexible and able to shift to
maintain balance -
my feet are structurally perfect.

Even still, it's hard to stand when
I'm sad.

29:30: October 14th 6 almost 7 thousand years ago, in the afternoon

2011-04-29T22:17:00.000-07:00

October 14th 6 almost 7 thousand years ago,
in the afternoon
god sat down at a yellow desk and decided
to make mud.
She maybe even read a book in between the batches
of sediment and stone.

The sun was shining in her window,
warming her legs.

She thought, "what a productive day"
as she turned the page.

28/30: Excerpt from The Toast

2011-04-29T22:13:00.000-07:00

"We all walk this earth - forging our paths, mending unspeakable pains, getting dirt under our fingernails, feeling mountainous with strength and tiny in the vastness. We all have this in common and those of us in this room have one more thing in common: we have the privilege of sharing our lives with [them]. I have known of their love from the moment i drew my first breath. I'm lucky that way....but together, together they are a fierce and peaceful force of nature...I am who I am because of them, plain and simple. my blood and skin, from their blood and skin.... Woman extraordinaire and legendary barber: hear hear."

27/30: Grasping at Straws

2011-04-28T20:06:00.000-07:00

Act 1: Sitting in dim light

i toil to find the words.
i scratch my skin when it itches
and sometimes
pick at my skin.

Act 2: Honest introspection

the things i know are limited
as are
the things i can do.

Act 3: Desperation

as i sit to write, i find
everything is fixed.
Flesh is flesh,
there's nothing that can change.

26/30: How to Write a Shitty Poem

2011-04-26T20:57:00.000-07:00

If at all possible, always drink.
Whiskey makes every word breathe
and bump against the page.
Stay away from tequila.

Sometimes it's okay to write poetry
while listening to hip hop.
Get your body moving to an apparent beat --
now, go. Write. The difference is tangible,
no?

Use a pen that sits nicely on
the fingers used to navigate.
Usually, the pen makes it.
It's more like a companionship,
a mutual respect.

Same rule goes for the page on which
the pen moves. Love the paper,
the journal. Be comfortable with the booklet
in your hands.
It's really a love affair between
hands, paper and pen.

Don't think about the assholes
one table over. The ones with the obnoxious
laughs and floppy hair. They might craft
words together better,
but the whiskey gives you an edge.

Write. Write about what you know.
Write about what makes this life unique
to you.
Write it loudly and maybe, drunkenly.

Write it. Read it.
Re-read it and repeat.

25/30: Love Poem

2011-04-26T20:55:00.001-07:00

There's just something about late at night.
It's casual and good.
And I think you agree.

I know you past midnight the most
and the best.
The way we talk with candor is
sometimes callous and
sometimes not.
Our syllables slow down,
sometimes completely.

And in dim light we sit,
full with one another.
Breathing in and
breathing out.

Being me and being you.

24/30

2011-04-26T20:40:00.000-07:00

This one gray sweatshirt falls nicely
on my shapely shoulders,
it hangs on my round,
tom-boyish breasts just as it should
and I swear to god,
it makes me walk with
sex in my step.

I wear it along side narcissism;
they both fit nicely.

23/30: Spring Night

2011-04-26T20:39:00.001-07:00

He said, in passing,
"Your face comes together
nicely -
all those shapes and
lines."

My lungs settled in steadily
with the breeze.

22/30: to the Field Museum

2011-04-24T19:38:00.000-07:00

Skinny legs are better for escaping a
tar pit.
We are currently in the sixth extinction -
caused by one species.
Apatosaurus and Brontosaurus are the same -
just different number of pelvic bones.
Juvenile and adult.
Mexican Grizzlies went extinct after being
forced into the mountains; they starved
to death.
Human beings are bringing about this new extinction
of mass proportions.
Early horses were the size of
schnauzers.
The Wolf Kachina doll is used in ceremonies
between summer and fall.
Four species an hour die out, permanently,
due to human beings.
Homo Sapiens prevailed over
Homo Neanderthals -
and now, thousands and thousands of years later,
bigger brains and less teeth,
we're destroying everything
around
us.

21/30: Religion

2011-04-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

The only revival I've ever known
is the rising river
and the standing still.
Breathing in moist air
seven thousand miles away -
soaking up the rain near
a church on a monday night after
too many whiskeys.

The only revelation I've ever known
involved my breasts and tight jeans
during summer months. Also, wearing
my hair in a high pony tail.

The only comfort I've ever known
is, after fucking up daily
and hurting one million times more
than I ever thought imaginable,
laying in the bed at night,
listening to my husband breathe.

20/30: The Black Snake

2011-04-24T19:33:00.000-07:00

Near the tree swing, you shot a snake with a sharp b.b.
The sleek black side, unaware of the muzzle of a gun,
completely oblivious to such an invention,
catching the summer shine as he went past.
I pleaded with you.

Next thing I knew, the poor creature flipped involuntarily,
trying to escape the pain and twisting in an ungodly
manner, and spilling from the graceful scales,
all of it's guts.
The rip in it's flesh paralleled only
by the sting in my stomach
and in my dry throat.

I ran behind the barn to cry -
ashamed for so many reasons.

19/30: A welcome, but more like a homecoming for The Two.

2011-04-19T19:48:00.000-07:00

Breathing in air for the first time
is an archaic step.
Today your little lungs met the Raven,
who brought ancient peoples light,
and Krishna.
Pieces of Jesus rested in your mouth
while you wept in the cold
under the brash light.

At once you became all directions
and all colors
and the symbol for the sun
and with your very first exhale
you are wielding a bow under thunder.
You're sailing waters in boats made
of sturdy oak and constructing
stone temples to praise
time passing and time to come.

The Earth welcomes your flesh and blood:
carbon from the coldest cave and iron
from the first volcanoes. You are old
and new.

Your family welcomes you with love.

18/30: Morning Prayer

2011-04-19T19:43:00.000-07:00

Let today be the day my ribs
break apart and turn the dirt
fertile.
The marrow from my long bones
will fill in and settled down
between the stones and
fiddle-head ferns.

Let today be the day that my life
is in balance - and not just the
thought.
The rain falls on me, like the last
person - walking lonely, dodging
the puddles with a
cold-nose.

17/30: Architecture

2011-04-19T19:39:00.000-07:00

I'm a fully mature female human
ruled by the moon in my Saturn Return.
I know it's okay to wear shirts
that lay just right on my breasts.

I also know it's okay to talk about it.

16/30: eulogy

2011-04-16T20:19:00.000-07:00

Sometimes all the words
are written, or spoken.
There's an inviting silence -
worthy and restful.
But sometimes, as it is
with you,
all the words are dead.
Decomposing and overgrown
with weeds,
you killed everything.
Everything.
But the
words went first.
Nothing I can scrape
together will ever
resemble what used to be
between us.

15/30

2011-04-16T19:36:00.000-07:00

Sometimes my skin just hangs on
my bones -
like torn drapes.
I get nervous that my flesh
might be dismantling.

I fear my fingernails
are separating from their beds.
Just like my fingernails to have
uncovered beds.

I dream that my teeth crumble
into my coffee
and down my throat.
The only thing I can think is
"Someone get me to the fucking
dentist."

Favorites 15/30: Married

2011-04-15T20:02:00.001-07:00

by Jack Gilbert

I came back from the funeral and crawled
around the apartment, crying hard,
searching for my wife's hair.
For two months got them from the drain,
from the vacuum cleaner, under the refrigerator,
and off the clothes in the closet.
But after other Japanese women came,
there was no way to be sure which were
hers, and I stopped. A year later,
repotting Michiko's avocado, I find
a long black hair tangled in the dirt.

Favorites: 14/30 termites of the page

2011-04-15T19:48:00.000-07:00

by Charles Bukowski

the problem that I've found with
most poets that I have known is that
they've never had an 8 hour job
and there is nothing
that will put a person
more in touch
with the realities
than
an 8 hour job.

most of these poets
that I have known
have
seemingly existed on
air alone
but
it hasn't been truly
so:
behind them has been
a family member
usually a wife or mother
supporting these
souls
and
so it's no wonder
they have written so
poorly:
they have been protected
against the actualities
from the
beginning
and they
understand nothing
but the ends of their
fingernails
and
their delicate
hairlines
and
their lymph
nodes.

their words are
unlived, unfurnished, un-
true, and worse -- so
fashionably
dull.

soft and safe
they gather together to
plot, hate,
gossip, most of these
American poets
pushing and hustling their
talents
playing at
greatness.

poet (?):
that word needs re-
defining.

when I hear that
word
I get a rising in the
gut
as if I were about to
puke.
let them have the
stage
so long
as I need not be
in the
audience.

14/30

2011-04-15T19:47:00.000-07:00

The line always stretches around
the cold church.

They stand with numb fingers
to maybe hold on to hope,

and a loaf of bread.

13/30

2011-04-13T20:53:00.000-07:00

The squirrel slowly moved his squirrel
arms to his side as he cautiously watched
me walk past.
He only worries about survival.

Me, too.

12/30

2011-04-13T20:49:00.000-07:00

The night he died, he wore a
yellow tank top and danced.
He had family in town,
who sat at the bar
drank red wine and
talked stocks.
He kissed his daughter
when she left to go home
to sleep.
The divorce was final and,
after two years, the house
was his and tomorrow
he had landscaping to do.

Before that night was over,
I wonder if he thought,
"sometimes life is perfect."

11/30: a study of cinquain

2011-04-13T20:43:00.000-07:00

old bones
brittled by wear
cracked and dry 'neath the heat
disintegrate in heavy winds.
life moves.
********************

bodies
move in the dark,
my lines forging with yours,
and our hot breath evaporates
from mist.
********************

waking
with ancient warmth,
we gather up our flesh,
submerge our hands in dirt and sing
of life.

Favorites 13/30: Of love and Other Disasters

2011-04-13T19:24:00.000-07:00

by Philip Levine

The punch-press operator from Flint
met the assembler from West Virginia
in a bar near the stadium. Neither
had anything in mind, so they conversed
about the upcoming baseball season
about which neither cared. We could
be a couple, he thought, but she was
all wrong, way too skinny. For years
he'd had an image of the way a woman
should look, and it wasn't her, it wasn't
anyone he'd ever known, certainly not
his ex-wife, who'd moved back south
to live with her high school sweetheart.
About killed him. I don't need that shit,
he almost said aloud, and then realized
she'd been talking to someone maybe
to him, about how she couldn't get
her hands right, how the grease ate
so deeply into her skin it became
part of her, and she put her hand,
palm up, on the bar and pointed
with her cigarette at the deep lines
that worked had carved. "The life line,"
he said, "which one is that?" "None,"
she said, and he noticed that her eyes
were hazel flecked with tiny spots
of gold, and then - embarrassed - looked
back at her hand, which seemed tiny
and delicate, the fingers yellowed
with calluses but slender and fine.
She took a paper napkin off the bar,
spit on it and told him to hold still
while she carefully lifted his glasses
up on his forehead, leaving him half
blind, and wiped something off
above his cheek bone. "There,"
she said, lowering his glasses, "I
got it," and even with his glasses on
what she showed him was nothing
he could see. He thought, better
get out of here before it's too late, but
knew too late was what he wanted.

10/30

2011-04-12T19:50:00.001-07:00

Oh, lordy lord, I say
right before bed.

I don't mean it.

9/30: The Great Birth: a myth condensed.

2011-04-12T19:45:00.000-07:00

The flood came for the Navaho
and wouldn't you know,
because of desire.
Masturbation with corncobs
and antelope livers with
well placed mouths.
The knowers knew storms were brewing.

Black Crow to the east - finding black storms
Magpie to the south - ocean blue storms, he said.
Hummingbird to the west, yellow storms, bright like midday
and to the north, a dove cooing of a white storm.

"Let all breathing creatures
retreat to the womb of the Earth."

7/30: Healing*

2011-04-12T19:41:00.000-07:00

I've written about desert towns before;
visions of sand paintings every morning
on the bedroom floor,
The Blessing Way healing our every
ailment - me, you and the priest with clean hair.
Even the greatest heart ache bears
no weapon.

The dry air bringing pollens from
far away-
feathers in my braid,
distantly, we live.

When the sun sets, with
eagle's wisdom, the song sticks to my skin:
I sing
"In the house of happiness, there I wander
beauty before me,
beauty behind me, below me, above me,
with it I wander.
I am on the beautiful trail,
with it
I wander."

Favorites: 12/30 (2 of them)

2011-04-12T19:40:00.000-07:00

GRIEF
by Stephen Dobyns

Trying to remember you
is like carrying water
in my hands a long distance
across sand. Somewhere
people are waiting.
They have drunk nothing for days.

Your name was the food I lived on;
now my mouth is full of dirt and ash.
To say your name was to be surrounded
by feathers and silk; now, reaching out,
I touch glass and barbed wire.
Your name was the thread connecting my life;
now I'm fragments on a tailor's floor.

I was dancing when i
learned of your death; may
my feet be severed from my body.

THE LORD SITS WITH ME OUT IN BACK
by Brett Jenkins

The Lord sits with me out in back and watches me
drink Miller High Life. I think about questions I will
not ask him and he shakes his head gently and smiles
a little. We watch birds flying low like leaves
lifting out of the fields. The cat lounges idly beside us,
toothing out the gravel from her paws. The Lord
watches her small movements for awhile. He asks me
to read him the Jack Gilbert poem again, and waits
as I flip to the dog-eared page; waits for me to wait for
the stable breath it will take to actually finish it this time.

8/30

2011-04-11T18:03:00.001-07:00

A face like your dad's, you
sit under the light drinking
your margarita.
And you talk about your life.

Favorites 8,9,10,11/30

2011-04-11T17:55:00.000-07:00

8.) STANZAS BEFORE TIME
by John Ashbery

Quietly as if it could be
otherwise, the ocean turns
and slinks back into her panties.

Reefs must know something of this,
and all the incurious red fish
that float ditsily in schools,

wondering which school is best.
I'd take you for a drive
in my flivver, Miss Ocean, honest, if I could.

9.) WHAT THE UNEDUCATED OLD WOMAN TOLD ME
by Christopher Reid

That she was glad to sit down.
That her legs hurt in spite of the medicine.
That times were bad.
That her husband had died nearly thirty years before.
That the war had changed things.
That the new priest looked like a schoolboy and you could
barely hear him in church.
That pigs were better company, generally speaking, than goats.
That no one could fool her.
That both her sons had married stupid women.
That her son-in-law drove a truck.
That he had once delivered something to the President's palace.
That his flat was on the seventh floor and that it made her dizzy
to think of it.
That he brought her presents from the black market.
That an alarm clock was of no use to her.
That she could no longer walk to town and back.
That all her friends were dead.
That I should be careful about mushrooms.
That ghosts never came to a house where a sprig of rosemary had
been hung.
That the cinema was a ridiculous invention.
That the modern dances were no good.
That her husband had had a beautiful singing voice, until drink
ruined it.
That the war had changed things.
That she had seen on a map where the war had been fought.
That Hitler was definitely in Hell right now.
That children were cheekier than ever.
That it was going to be a cold winter, you could tell from the
height of the birds' nests.
That even salt was expensive these days.
That she had had a long life and was not afraid of dying.
That times were very bad.

10.) THAT'S THE SUM OF IT
by David Ignatow

I don't know which to mourn. Both have died on me, my wife and
my car. I feel strongly about my car, but I am also affected by my
wife. Without my car, I can't leave the house to keep myself from
being alone. My wife gave me two children, both of whom, of
course,
no longer live with us, as was to be expected, as we in our youth
left
our parents behind. With my car, I could visit my children, when
they
are not too busy.

Before she died, my wife urged me to find another woman. it's
advice
I'd like to take up but not without a car. Without a car, I cannot
find
myself another woman. That's the sum of it.

11.) 1953

by Jack Gilbert

All night in the Iowa cafe. Friday night
and the farm boys with their pay.
Fine bodies and clean faces. All of them
proud to be drunk. No meanness,
just energy. At the next table, they talked
cars for hours, friends coming and going,
hollering over. The one with the heavy face
and pale hair kept talking about the Chevy
he had years ago and how it could
take everything in second.
Moaning that he should never have sold it.
Didn't he show old Hank? Bet your ass!
That Fourth of July when Shelvadeen
got too much patriotism and beer
and gave some to everybody
down by the river. Hank so mad because
I left him like he was standing still.
Best car that ever was, and never should have
let it go. Tears falling on his eggs.

Favorites: 7/30: The Cure

2011-04-11T17:54:00.000-07:00

by Ginger Andrews

Lying around all day
with some strange new deep blue
weekend funk, I'm not really asleep
when my sister calls
to say she's just hung up
from talking with Aunt Bertha
who is 89 and ill but managing
to take care of Uncle Frank
who is completely bed ridden.
Aunt Bert says
it's snowing there in Arkansas,
on Catfish Lane, and she hasn't been
able to walk out to their mailbox.
She's been suffering
from a bad case of the mulleygrubs.
The cure for the mulleygrubs,
she tells my sister,
is to get up and bake a cake.
If that doesn't do it, put on a red dress

6/30: A Small Study of Haiku on Spring Birds (Morning)

2011-04-06T16:03:00.001-07:00

two robins standing,
small heads tilted towards the ground -
listening for worms.

to the sparrows, they
are the only ones; eating
in the church courtyard.

purple house finches
sitting in budding bushes
singing their hearts out.

Favorites 6/30: Drawing Jesus

2011-04-06T16:02:00.000-07:00

by David Shumate

The first patient drew Jesus as a tall, slender man with three smiling
heads, one eye in the center of each. Another sketched him as a stick figure
wearing a yellow hat. The teenage girl from Alabama drew a white
vulture with a halo above its head. At the table by the window the Hungarian
immigrant whose language no one understood drew a face with a
scar running down his cheek, a ragged red beard, and the kind of wild
eyes that frighten children. The old woman who has lived half-a-century
in the asylum painted a picture of a dozen orange boxes and asked me to
guess which one Jesus was hiding in. I pointed to the box with the
bulge in the middle. The Hungarian started laughing. Then they all
joined in.

5/30: Working towards death

2011-04-05T20:56:00.000-07:00

i would take my small bow saw,
maybe lay it flat and next to my
aged trowel, if i had one.

if i had one, i'd put it in my
shed that sits along the violets,
maybe i'd hang it on the wall
near the shovel.

one day, i'd go get that saw
and cut through wood with a
purpose; conquering, with grace,
the how to's of, i don't know, let's say,
a coffin.

that day, i'd also take the shovel
and dig a hole; wait, maybe years,
for someone to die.

Favorites 5/30: The Lovesick Monk

2011-04-05T20:42:00.001-07:00

by Leonard Cohen

I shaved my head
I put on robes
I sleep in the corner of a cabin
sixty-five hundred feet up a mountain
It's dismal here
The only thing I don't need
is a comb

4/30

2011-04-04T20:42:00.000-07:00

What about blood in the sand?
It puddles between the legs of a man,
flowing around like water.

There are teeth and bones and chunks
of skin tossed about in unsuspecting bedrooms,
linens balled up in the corner.

Then, grief becoming realized,
a cello sonata resting on crimson hands turned skyward -
desperate and aching for breath.

And me, pouring a glass of milk.

Favorites 4/30: Desperate Talk

2011-04-04T18:38:00.000-07:00

by James Tate

I asked Jasper if he had any ideas about the coming revolution.
"I didn't know there was a revolution coming," he said. "Well,
people are pretty disgusted. There might be," I said. "I wish
you wouldn't just make things up. You're always trying to fool
with me," he said. "There are soldiers everywhere. It's hard
to tell which side they're on," I said. "They're against us.
Everyone's against us. Isn't that what you believe?" he said.
"Not everyone. There are a few misguided stragglers who still
believe in something or other," I said. "Well, that gives me
heart," he said. "Never give up the faith," I said. "Who said
I ever had any?" he said. "Shame on you, Jasper. It's important
to believe in the cause," I said. "The cause of you digging us
deeper into a hole?" he said. "No, the cause of the people standing
together for their rights, freedom and all," I said. "Well, that's
long gone. We have no rights," he said. We fell silent for the
next few minutes. I was staring out the window at a rabbit in
the yard. Finally, I said, "I was just saying all that to amuse
you." "So was I," he said. "Do you believe in God?" I said. "God's
in prison," he said. "What'd he do?" I said. "Everything," he
said.

3/30: Let's be Free

2011-04-03T19:52:00.001-07:00

I want to mean the words I say, and
the symbols I use to convey feeling,
I want to mean those, too. I do
believe what I say when I say
I know my bones will one day be
inside your lungs and Grass will
grow up through my ribs.
I also deeply believe the words I
will never say, I know the secrets
I have, but I never want to
know yours. I've heard that whole-truths
can be entirely devastating.
One time, I walked
to a creek with a boy named Keith.
We loved each other in a way I
can't describe, but it was something like
Queen Anne's Lace and running
through the yard with muddy shoes.
He told me about craw-dads and tadpoles,
the words were true even if they
weren't.
Twenty years later I think of a
boy who is now a man;
dead. (Those words are true
and false, sometimes, it's hard to tell.)
But now, after all this, I want
to say, Let's take this life one
word at a time. Let's be free,
both in truth and
in lies.

Favorites 3/30: Teaching a Child the Art of Confession

2011-04-03T16:39:00.000-07:00

by David Shumate

It is best not to begin with Adam and Eve. Original Sin is
baffling, even for the most sophisticated minds. Besides,
children are frightened of naked people and apples. Instead,
start with the talking snake. Children like to hear what animals
have to say. Let him hiss for a while and tell his own tale.
They'll figure him out in the end. Describe sin simply as those
acts which cause suffering and leave it at that. Steer clear of
musty confessionals. Children associate them with outhouses.
Leave Hell out of the discussion. They'll be able to describe it
on their own soon enough. If they feel the need to apologize
for some transgression, tell them that one of the offices of the
moon is to forgive. As for the priest, let him slumber a while
more.

2/30:

2011-04-02T20:18:00.000-07:00

driving through the small town
known for its chair caning,
the church roof tells me "Jesus
is coming" and has for years.

I think it's only polite to gracefully
accept, but what I want to know is:
shouldn't we tell Jesus he's definitely late
and vacant promises lose meaning?

Mainly, I put my confidences in the brittled
corn stalks waiting to be plowed and
the bacteria that eats me from the inside out.

Favorites 2/30: The forgotten Dialect of the Heart

2011-04-02T20:16:00.000-07:00

by Jack Gilbert

How astonishing it is that language can almost mean,
and frightening that it does not quite. Love, we say,
God, we say, Rome and Michiko, we write, and the words
get it wrong. We say bread and it means according
to which nation. French has no word for home,
and we have no word for strict pleasure. A people
in northern India is dying out because their ancient
tongue has no words for endearment. I dream of lost
vocabularies that might express some of what
we no longer can. Maybe the Etruscan texts would
finally explain why the couples on their tombs
are smiling. And maybe not. When the thousands
of mysterious Sumerian tablets were translated,
they seemed to be business records. But what if they
are poems or psalms? My joy is the same as twelve
Ethiopian goats standing silent in the morning light.
O Lord, thou art slabs of salt and ingots of copper,
as grand as ripe barley lithe under the wind's labor.
Her breasts are six white oxen loaded with bolts
of long-fibered Egyptian cotton. My love is a hundred
pitchers of honey. Shiploads of thuya are what
my body wants to say to your body. Giraffes are this
desire in the dark. Perhaps the spiral Minoan script
is not a language but a map. What we feel most has
no name but amber, archers, cinnamon, horses and birds.

1/30: without hooves

2011-04-01T17:34:00.000-07:00

Sometimes the deer carcass will lay
and rot in the field -
the sutures of her skull undone by days
in the dirt.

Other times, her entrails spell out
death on the pavement,
bones and dignity splintered and scattered.

Either way she dies.
I am the deer,
no one cries for me.

Favorites 1/30: Firm against the pattern

2011-04-01T17:31:00.000-07:00

by Brett Eugene Ralph

When I saw Charity dancing
alone in the farmhouse kitchen,
eyes closed, lips parted, held aloft
in one hand half a mango,
a gigantic butcher knife
clutched in the other -- I froze
at the screen door as I always do
when I come upon someone praying.

All night I had been hitting
on the daughter of a tiny woman
orphaned by Hiroshima.
Grandparents had been lost, and her mother
would soon be dead though no one knew
if it was the blast or the facility
she retired next to in Utah.

This was the kind of bitter irony
that made you want to burn the flag --
even if it was against the law, even
on the Fourth of July on property owned
by a Republican state senator.
Which is precisely what would happen
later, after we'd drunk the wine.

Hey, he said in one of those voices
unique to fraternity members
high on nitrous oxide, Anybody want a drink
of hundred-year-old Romanian wine?
Before we could answer, he had produced
from one of the pockets on his wheel chair
wine he meted out, so help me God,
from a Mrs. Butterworth's bottle.

By the time that bottle made its way
around the bonfire, I was drunk
on kimonos wed to atom bombs
and motherless children left to cultivate
an excruciating beauty,
drunk on crippled tipplers
scarcely larger than dolls.
On an evening such as this, one swig
makes little difference.

Like the wine my father fashioned
out of blackberries, out of plums,
it was very sweet and very strong
and it wouldn't have taken much to turn
Mrs. Butterworth upside down
until her skirts fell and I'd forgotten
that the cloud above Nagaskai rhymes
with the flag we raised on the moon.

As I watched Charity, I rested
my brow against the rusty screen
and that knife and mango might have been
a bottle and a beating heart,
a bomb and a burned up baby doll,
a flag and whatever comes to mind
when you read the word forgiveness.

Closing my eyes, I extended my tongue
and pressed it firm against the pattern:
I tasted yesterday's rain, the forgotten
carcasses of moths,
broken glances, rebel tears,
the smoke of not-so-distant fires,
all those delicate gestures
we collect and call the seasons.

50/24: When the sun engulfs the earth

2011-03-08T18:52:00.001-08:00

It was always fate to have the earth eat up my bones,
no matter the way.

and so, now, it is.

the secrets i have -
and the grief that flows through my spine
and the emotion that calls itself 'Happiness',
(no wait! strike that)
'Impulsivity'
and all my orgasms that bind my cranial sutures and
every single one of my heart beats
and, of course, all of my anatomy,
all of it, burned up and left for carbon.

lucky for me,
my electricity started in the sun.

49/23: Drunk: take one

2011-02-24T14:20:00.000-08:00

Something, something
earth and lungs
and
this, this and that-
heart beating warm blood
and thisandthat
bones with breaking-
grief and roots
and blah blah
blood and bones.

48/22

2011-02-24T14:16:00.000-08:00

How many times do I have to say "I am the Earth" before you understand the implications?
You can grow your garden on my skin and take root right through my dura mater. Unfurl my nerves, string some stones as a necklace - and sing around the camp fire.

47/21

2011-02-24T14:03:00.001-08:00

I'm comfortable with the sound of my feet
hitting the ground ,
and with the size(and shape) of my breasts:
small and round, pink and shy.
The moon pulls out part of my uterine wall
every single month -
I'm used to that, too,
and how my skin eloquently
covers my bones without complaint.

I'm the dirt and also the air,
so, I'd like to say, my body
will be around forever -
filling the lungs of your children
and lighting up the poles
and making its way to the core of the sun
where hydrogen changes to helium.
Let me be immortal.

46/20: I have wild in me

2011-02-15T18:52:00.000-08:00

I have wild in me.

It's something like running fast and
letting my teeth tear through flesh,
this unfettered body.

Royalty pumping in my blood,
becoming one with my wooden bow,
either yew, ash or elm.
I wield it, like my heart.

I let oils of dead leaves
soak into my skin while I put these
fingers right in the mud.
I decompose - one organ system
right after the other, beckoning the crows.

I am the wild in the earth,
roots and glass, and one thousand
queens;
my molecules
invading your lungs.

45/19

2011-02-13T08:54:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the tree bark in my blood gives me a rest.
And i think the earth is turning like it should.

Something like feeling warm blood in your veins and
breathing in copious amounts of water through the air.

(His face is sweet like it was months ago
and his touch like it ever was)

Something like coming home
and realizing it never was me.
Something like loving hard and knowing the moon is
just reflecting.

44/18: Building a beating heart

2011-02-09T20:36:00.000-08:00

Lately, it seems easier to just remember
how my bones broke apart when you
were around,

and how you knew exactly the items
to piece together for a
beating heart.

43/17: robust

2011-01-25T19:27:00.000-08:00

these nights i feel my blood
everywhere,
circling my skull
with intention and bringing
antiquated pollen up and through
my heart;
keeping rhythm with the in and out of
my lungs.

i can tell you this:
we are primal and sturdy animals
constructed carefully by the handiwork
of eons.

i know i am an animal;
i trust everything in place to make me so.
i am naked skinned and warm blooded and
i smell of the earth from which i came.

42/16: so said chief lelooska

2011-01-22T21:39:00.000-08:00

I promise, you can trust the loon.
You might not think so,
but you can.

He will heal you;
nearly drown you
and end up
saving your life.

15/31

2011-01-18T12:45:00.000-08:00

I'm ready to talk about creation.

Actually, let's not talk about Humanity
because that's easy.
A spirit person slayed another
and we sprouted from her blood.
And something about foam and teeth
(planted like seeds)
and something like
an ever expanding, soon to be collapsing infinity.
Right?
So, not that.

Creation, like, the breaking apart of my femur
and sucking out the marrow,
both red and yellow, and
allowing two single cells to grow
tucked away inside my blood
and inside my foam.

I don't care about humans, as a whole,
just a tiny one.

40/14: two

2011-01-14T10:56:00.000-08:00

i want to write my words on dried leather.
and completely forget about being hurried
and completely forget about being weighed down

i think that part of me stands on
the cusp of one thousand canyons -
echoing around like the sun light.
i have enough love for at least,
but probably exactly, one eon.

but then,
i have this other part of me

i think that, most likely, i have a
crude metal sword swung by my ancestors and
hollowed down the middle. cold metal and
jewelry and goats - and enough
loyalty to last all my life.

39/13: He wore his socks to his calves

2010-11-19T11:19:00.000-08:00

i used to have a dad;
he was a good man with a barrel chest
and a ruddy face.
his hair, plain brown and his hands smelled
like oil.

he's dead now.

he died in a frenzy;
his voice broken apart by fear the last time i heard him.

i'm still incomplete

38/12:all put together and pretty

2010-11-15T20:30:00.000-08:00

the anatomy of my body is set.
My bones are formed,
my ribs are both true and false
and my cervical curve starts with atlas
and ends with my tail.

my bones are trees and i wrap my legs around the earth
at least 1000 times.
this is a truth i can only know in autumn,
it's something about dying.

my blood is here, too,
tying me directly to you

as i sit under my nest, all put together
and pretty.
being part of every thing is exhausting.

37/11: secrets, also known as personal preferences.

2010-11-15T20:29:00.000-08:00

I have pieces of truth hidden between my ribs
and
very particular reasons for
not shaving my arm pits.

You will never know either.

36/10: quiet musings of a server

2010-11-15T20:28:00.000-08:00

Sometimes life is cleaning carpets
and picking up straw papers.

Other times, it's not.

35/104:09/30: "The Smell of Leaves"

2010-11-08T20:50:00.000-08:00

The smell of leaves is deep like lungs.
It's a brittle smell, submerged, flowing with my blood
and rooted like love.
Each inhale is a breath of earth,
it smells like a hymn for the sky and also,
a flowing ovation for calming down, digging some holes
and crafting a nest.
Each leaf is a sensation of dying and living
and singing and grieving.
Leaves smell like ancient dirt
and becoming.
Deep, like I said before.

34/104:08/30: "Pretend You're an Old Man"

2010-11-08T20:34:00.000-08:00

I once had a face that was different and I was younger then.
I had days that stretched seamlessly into more days
and in any given moment i would live and had lived
forever.

My steps were ethereal and nimble and, had I known,
I would have praised each movement as holy -
something worthy. Each heart beat might have gotten
applause.

The rust in these bones have turned my eyes orange,
time is done and my skin says so. I was younger once,
I think. Now I'm just a relic of a lifetime gone
by.

33/104:07/30: you know about Gingko trees? for andy

2010-11-08T20:27:00.000-08:00

So what if the Gingko leaves fall like rain?

At a certain hour the top leaf might decide
the sun is cutting him a little short.
He's definitely made up his mind after he thinks it through.
No one likes getting one minute less than what he's bargained for.

Once he falls, his friends summarize the past few days and decide
this is how it must happen. (and you know what they say,
if this is the way it must happen then this is the way it shall be done.)

One after the other, and sometimes handfuls at a time,
fall
and
fall.
Little yellow fans spread out like the sky.
And just like that, the day is done.

33/104:06/30:Love Poem-Take 2

2010-11-07T21:36:00.001-08:00

I've been meaning to say this,
but you know about life.
The bills that are behind and
how my feet hurt after work and
the dishes that balance on top of other dishes
with left overs stuck on each fork.
But, still, I've been meaning to tell you -

You are good like jumping canyons
and breathing deeply and
feeling your own heart pump your own blood
in the morning.
A fundamental and unrestrained good.

And sometimes when I'm driving home,
desperate with the heater on my feet,
the street lights swell up in me all that I can handle;
the only thing I can manage with any grace whatsoever
is getting to you.

32/104:05/30: Two Days is a Long Time in Some Circles

2010-11-05T22:20:00.000-07:00

A new elegance comes from waiting -
Perhaps, a new quiet.

Accidentally, the scenarios aren't too docile,
slightly uncontainable and out of control.

And I want to say one thousand things (but don't)
and do at least half of that (and still don't).

Maybe it would be terrible,
or maybe it would just be.

32/104:04/30: Sometimes Things Were Bad

2010-11-05T22:17:00.000-07:00

10077.
That was my first library number.
When I was 8.

I was a tiny wristed, white toothed 8 year old.
I learned to ride a purple bike with a purple dress on.
And I blew the hell out of bubbles
on a creaky porch swing.
I had a baby brother who I sang to
and made laugh and sometimes cry,
but more laughs.
and sweaty cousins to play hide and seek
and set up fake carnivals.
I even took piano lessons.

Sometimes things were bad,
but sometimes they were the complete opposite.

31/104:03/30: Let's try optimism

2010-11-03T19:34:00.000-07:00

Take an inventory of all the things you're good at.
Start now.
It may take a few days.
Add items to that list that may not be completely true.
Then add "creative connoisseur"
if only because of the lies.

Anything that comes to mind -
write it down - or, better yet,
write it in the sky.
Let your neighbors know that
yes, in fact, you may cry a lot
(a lot),
but that can be a radiant and delicate characteristic.
The ability to openly weep, well, not everyone possesses it.

For example, on my alphabetized inventory
I might talk about my rib cage.
I think it's beautiful.
And occasionally,
I blast light straight from my sternum.

See? It's simple.

30/104:02/30: Two steps to remain lonely

2010-11-02T19:33:00.000-07:00

For starters,
think about when you were little.
Remember, laying in you bed,
how fast your heart would pump hot blood
through your tiny body
when you knew this night was the night
you'd have to call the police again.

Sometimes he drank too much
and sometimes, she hit him with the
meanest words ever spoken.
(The reciprocation would blow the walls down)

Remembering; that's the first step.

Secondly, know that no one you know
can relate.

29/104:01/30: Never Ceasing

2010-11-02T19:01:00.000-07:00

I will stand knee deep in heavily laden soil.
There I will craft that wheat grass into ropes and
tie my own wrists tightly.
I will rub the mud on my face if only to jump start
the decomposition.
(Not in a field of lilies, mind you,
just soil.
Stripped and full of broken boulders and empty)
That's where I'll die.

I will walk there willingly and I will
rip out my own intestines to beckon the crows. (i am them)

And if there is a god who cares about my personal queries,
well, it'll be then that I ask her about things like my skull
and my rib cage,
oh!
and I'd probably bring up about sacrifice.
But probably, I'd just ask,
politely of course,
"what the fuck?"

And for once, I will
let loose the glass from my marrow.

28/104: Poverty, who will survive?

2010-10-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

Today, I said,
"things aren't always the way they should be."

I believe that, I mean, I must.
I said it.

The mere statement, spoken without a second thought,
took me aback.

I am living a fucking cliche,
in the worst way.

27/104: A dedication of sorts

2010-10-21T21:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes a girl might get lonely.
That girl, well, her bones just might break
because of grief;
brittle little sad bones
white with surrender.

Her nose might bleed.
The pain and the war,
it just gets to be too much.
And then, naturally,
there becomes no love left.

Harpsichords eat up the background
while the girl becomes magnolias.
No one listens.

26/104: Far from you.

2010-10-15T05:09:00.001-07:00

You sat still.
(Except for your hands and feet.
They moved with intention, and more importantly,
grace.)

My heart blew down the walls as you sat there,
bathed in light,
singing.

You made me remember that I used to know you,
but somehow, this day, I don't.

25/104: No Hero Here

2010-09-24T13:33:00.000-07:00

We have notes on yellow and
purple paper hanging around
this house -
on walls
ledges
computer screens
reminding us of appointments
and grammar rules
and outstanding bills that
somehow
have to get paid.

I wish these notes
could help me remember
that the wind still blows,
sometimes like running horses.

24/104: No one really wants that

2010-09-24T06:54:00.000-07:00

I want to write you one thousand words
to let you know exactly.
But when I start, it seems all those words
that might be perfect
are all used up.

I need you to know somethings
and I need to know somethings,
but everything is clumsy.

23/104: Excerpts from a Letter to a Baby Who Won't Ever be Born

2010-09-22T17:01:00.000-07:00

-I'm not even sure I could tell you about regret;
maybe in 20 years.

-Grief is okay; hurting down to your bones and
crying until your throat bleeds is quite alright.
Surround yourself with people who understand that.

-Love people hard.

-Expectations are rarely met.

- Human beings are mean, full of potential to
destroy everything, but so full of love it makes
me explode. It's difficult remembering both of those facts
at the same time. Practice.

-Laugh loudly.

22/104: Outskirts of Tbilisi

2010-09-14T10:35:00.000-07:00

There's a long stretching rift in your perfect summer day.

Standing on the shore with tiny blue shorts
and a rib cage that's not ashamed to tell your age,
you chat with your friends.

Your wings are busting out of your back
and those nipples, jesus christ, they're so tiny.
And your floppy hair...
everything is so young to this earth.

Breathe in this warmth.
Soon Russia's shadow will blot out the sun
and you'll be blistering your hands
working for the rail way.

21/104: The baby is sick

2010-09-06T10:43:00.001-07:00

Things move at a certain pace around here.
I sit and my heart's rhythm is Ray Charles
or just a cadence with the wind.
I don't know.

The afternoon sun sneaks through the trees
and comes right in these windows.
I don't have a bra on
I haven't thought about socks for days
and I can say 'fuck' any time I'd like.

(I prefer it this way, believe it or not)

I can't imagine a life where the phrase
"The kids need shoes" would ever leave my mouth.

Hallelujah for this life.

20/104: Untitled

2010-08-31T08:43:00.000-07:00

I shoulder the thought of transparency
but shudder with fresh air knowing
I am a well of personal quiets
no one will ever know.

19/104: I Turn on the Radio

2010-08-29T23:24:00.000-07:00

It's 2 am and I'm falling in love
with everything I hear.

Maybe it's the exhaustion, but I'm
waiting for Bruce Springsteen
to push me against the wall
and show me Americana
with his own hands.

18/104: haiku?

2010-08-28T14:47:00.000-07:00

four black boys lying
on the porch, laughing, shirtless,
soaking up summer.

17/104: Love poem

2010-08-25T10:46:00.001-07:00

I work hard for our little family - my feet ache
like nothing else.
My tarsals are spreading to help my body maintain.
Someone told me once
that maybe my body is in a constant fight or flight state.
He's right.
That's life, or mine anyways.

So, this morning before the moon gave way,
I woke up and made you
hot salt water to gargle because you're sick.

You gagged. I heard you,
but you did it anyways.

16/104: "Them streets are getting wider"

2010-08-23T05:28:00.000-07:00

Get out that jaw harp and teach the night about grief.
Let it echo down the streets;
show the neighbors it's possible to have integrity,
even if we can't stand up straight.

I don't know what it's like to dig for scraps
or beg for beer or to carry packs full of burdens alone,
but I do have my own
and I know other pains.

So, sing it again, about the streets and let
loose that intoxicating harmonica.

15/104: Resisting the Urge

2010-08-23T05:16:00.000-07:00

The best poets say, basically, just don't do it.
Do not break apart your sternum and squeeze the heart out.
Do not pinpoint the seven million reasons why.
Do not think of summer nights,
sweaty and raw, or how autumn is for lovers.
Just, maybe, stay away from love poems all together.

Which, let's face it, is good for one who writes with clumsy metaphors.
(concrete blocks take my words to the bottom of the river,
love isn't down there).

So, I will not attempt a love poem.
I won't...maybe I will.

Maybe I'll just write a few words -
maybe tomorrow.

14/104: Untitled and Full of Night

2010-08-18T09:04:00.000-07:00

It's quiet around here, my heart is beating slowly
and melodically.
Life is slow and methodic.
This beauty is slow, too.
Everything around me is heavy, a sad piano - I walk with the same feet
but with difficulty.
I point to the sky and see the harmonica sized sparrows
flitting around,
unfazed by this sadness.

The blues are a sense of relief, but still too bright
to help.

The greens give me life, but life is sometimes
not enough.

I feel my heart - she's still there,
and I,
I am still here.

Let me forget.

13/104: On regaining balance also known as, Not All Things are Autobiographical, but Some Are (from the nah series)

2010-08-15T20:04:00.000-07:00

Well, one person will know
the pains of a seriously vulnerable week
tucked deep into the palms of summer.

(My hair was perfect, and my skin
was happy)

But that soul will soon forget the smell of books and sweaty palms
and the feel of breaking through circumstances.

And then, after the forgetting,
as in the beginning,
it will be me.

I will wear that shirt again
I will walk the steps again
I will be fine,
but my old eyes,
they're getting older and
every
single
day
I am less and less desirable.

12.5/104: New Mexico Remix (nah series)

2010-08-15T19:26:00.000-07:00

**DISCLAIMER** Very similar feel to New Mexico. I just had some left over lines that needed to go somewhere - so, I made a remix.

I'll be there and you'll be there,
lying flat, on our backs,
with dust under our finger nails;
becoming whole.
In between the mountains,
counting your freckles with my eyes closed,
we will only exist to each other.

12/104: For MM, concerning daisies and guns

2010-08-13T23:25:00.000-07:00

I wonder about you sometimes...
if your hair was the color of sand
when you toted around that gun.
and if you named your weapon
and if eight years was too many years
in the military,
especially if peace was your cape.

Did you hear the ole' whistle blow
before
or
after
the compromise?

And when I hear you talk about the
lack of a sustainable economy in parts of Africa
or when you followed the Dead down your own Miracle Alley -

then, I know.

11/104: "'I like your style'" (from the nah series)

2010-08-13T23:23:00.000-07:00

Sometimes on Mondays
you chop celery so fine
you can't even see it.
Then, you put it in chicken salad.
You parade it around and
eat it; then you've done it.

Other times on Mondays,
you go to a bar
and you drink at least
two beers too many.
Then, you walk around in the rain
and look at churches down town.

10/104: Found Poem (from the nah series): million things

2010-08-13T23:22:00.000-07:00

a million things to think about
but i can only think of one thing
a million different ways...
you.

09/104: New Mexico (from the 'nah' series)

2010-08-07T19:28:00.000-07:00

let me move there.
i'll build up our house with
ancient red dirt.
once, we might lay outside
and let the dust know us.
we'll close our eyes;
i'll braid my hair for miles
and miles.
you might touch it and
say, "the sun shines for you"
and i may count your freckles.
i might say "your skin is
terrain, maybe holy."
we could put our hands
deep into the water;
and should we dip our
cup into the sky
and drink it until
we flip inside out?
probably.

let me move there.
i'll stand up tall
with a sweet breeze
bringing earth to my nose.
once, we might have had a life
that wasn't mountains and leather
and open-like-soul skies.
i don't remember that
or the sharp pangs,
do you?
i might say, "let's not"
and smile.
you might agree.
we'll stay on the prairie
perpetually hunting with our
sunset bows and arrows.
we'll bleed there
and create secrets,
alone from familiarity.
should we walk with our
own feet to New Mexico?
probably.

08/104: Sixteen and counting (from the 'nah' series)

2010-08-04T05:51:00.000-07:00

I was standing in the middle
each wall morphing into the next
in a sharp incline towards night.

Rain was in my eyes
and on my shoes.

The sky pressed down on my shoulders
as I stood in the courtyard

breathing; steady as the rain.

07/104: Seven Years Bad Luck

2010-06-26T12:47:00.000-07:00

The music soaked into my skin.
My cells satiated;
My limbs numb with stimulation.

The news was sound.
The news was color.

She sang blue
with sand in her throat:
'it died and didn't even
say hello,'
so she said with his hand on her arm.